Frozen thoughts...

another day, the sun shinin bright in the sky
another hour, the street down there with the cars buzzing by,
another minute, everyone playing the monotonous L.I.F.E. game
another second, the air around is all just the same

nothing seems to change,
no one takes notice,
faces and things alike
the same numbness everywhere..

it aint the numb of the feelings crossin the mind
not something of the likes of emotions held back,
but where is the genuinity and where is the truth?
i still crave o lord, for some generous outpour.

i sat beside him, with my heart stretched out,an open playground..
turbulence and turmoil playing at their best,every comin round,
could have chosen not to give up, me being the referee of the game..
still, something out there was there... holding down the black veil the same.

a wall, a barrier, an obstruction man-made,
not one of these exist in the reality of the trade,
'tis all in the head', had said a good old man..
'tis all in the head', yes, i say, thats why the pain !

still sitting beside him, not a word exchanged,
compromise is what, for we both have bargained,
silence is best, silence is golden,
silence is killing, when its deliberation is provoken.

Nostalgia is good

Nostalgia for what we have lost is more bearable than nostalgia for what we have never had.... ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

Now i dont even know whether I should write this one on a good note or a bad note.. Had drafted this article out earlier, with a totally different content in mind. But now, its Nostalgia itself that made me change the content :)
Happens.. That is why at times I ask my mind to stop thinking. It is thinking only, that creates memories, and then when you just dont need them, brings them back to your mind.

BUT, Nostalgia is much more than memory...
A web definition calls it as "Nostalgia is a longing for the past, often idealized and unrealistic"
Now, the difference between Nostalgia and memory is right there... Memory can never be idealised... and yea, never unreal !
Nostalgia, I associate it with every event happening to me, every person I meet, every good, every bad, every not so good n every not so bad thing happeing with me. But, there are these special ones, these special moments which give Nostalgia its true definition ! Its the feel that you get when you visit an old road you always used to walk on or when you go to your 1st semester classroom and sit on the last bench and remember the times or when you just sit back and think about all those lovely converstations that used to go on all night !
Trust me, this list can go on n on. And right now, I am in that frame of mind, where Nostalgia has gripped me completely. Its true, it brings smiles with it :) But well yes, a lot of pain for all that has gone by and will never come across.. Beautiful feeling !!

There is so much more to write about feeling nostalgic.. Hang on pals.. The next one will come soon...

A lot can happen over coffee ! ! !

Turmoil, chaos, dither... yes, many of us would definitely associate ourselves with such synonymous states of mind at times.
Reasons, factors and causes that lead the mind to the clamor that follows, are yes, innumerable again.
Like everyone, everytime does... respond to such a situation, not necessarily in the most correct way . But, One thing i did today, when muh mind was out of order in such a turbulent state was... but of course, to let go !

And, to top it all, a call from a close one coming over, to take you out for a coffee.. is just an icing on the cake :)

So, after trying to calm down the storm roaring in my head(god only knows why such a state the head went into in the first place) i stepped out, for the exciting evening... imagine.. getting decked up, having ur close ones pickin u up, n then, the ecstatic coffee..

All credit to coffee day, for the superb tag line-"a lot can happen over a coffee".
A die-hard coffee fan that i am, the excellent outlet i had been to, along with the amazing talks that we had over coffee... the coffee n the bond(between me and my friend) just got stronger n stronger.

(hey, dont assume that i am show casing CCD out here... I dint even go to a CCD, it was another, coffee shop)

turmoil, chaos.... was how i started writing this post, n now, u can see how things have changed into ecstacy, bonding and above all "no disordered state of the mind".
Yes, the true essence of writing this text here was, to tell you all, how lettin go helped, in ways more than one. Dont let disorder of the mind dictate terms for how u should act. Rather, let go of it n take charge. Probably, a nice environment, with some nice coffee aroma, n one of ur close pals... n yes, everything looks so straightened up !

Try it out pals... it might just work :)

Cheers !!!

this time... no reason !

Tiz more than a year now...

Used to be regular at blogger.com when in college. Reading interestin blogs where ppl poured out their minds/hearts, sometimes witty, sometimes canny, sometimes way too (in)sane...
Alwayz wondered wht i will write if i make one o mine.
eh??? actually, escaping from the 3 easy steps of creating one(blog i mean) :P

Thoughts that ran in muh mind then :
>let me think of a good reason and then I am gonna write about it n share my viewz.
>its gonna be this way... that way... impressive... original... thought provoking...
>content thts written to hit people's brainz n get them working on a cause(hee hee hee)
n blah blah blah ! ! !
nope, i dont think i was procastinating. I was jus being pure lazy..

Then, i was out of college. Office happened.
Work life, corporate offices, secure networks, the funniest part of em all.. "blocked sites " ;)
Are offices n the care-takers of the so called secure networks, that ignorant of proxies or are they just being tht way, cuz they cant do much about them???
me too, clinged on to some ethics(yeah right...) which never make any absolute sense to me too :P

Tried to be tht extremely loyal team member who only copy-pastes during office hours (n does not even try to bypass any network/ breach any security condition) ... wooooooww... how sincere ;)
I cant believe i gave up bloggin n orkutting n mailin(official mailz were the only communication tht happened from my side). Too much right.

Time now, the awakener hit me "warum bin ich seiend so dumm? "
Sincerity.. Ethics.. i believe. Well, i am sure u'd have known by now, wht a lazy bum i am :P (and ofcourse, the biggest excuse maker of all)

Reason to host a blog i believe. Can u find a bigger duffer than me??

So...
DipSheeTz are here.. Read on ppl...